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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|01:18 pm] |
this is how i feel right now!!! yep you're jealous... |
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| hells yeah |
[Jun. 3rd, 2005|12:39 pm] |
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this is my last marketing class in high school EVER. so i decided to spend it on the computer as always. its been fun kids.
<333
classa ohhh fiiiveee |
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| butterflies in the stomach fo real sucka |
[May. 27th, 2005|10:19 pm] |
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| | The Cure | ] |
New York tommorrow. Im so stoked. get to FINALLY see BRIAN!!!!!!! <33333333 dont miss me too much everybody. feel free to call anytime through out the weekend. <3 i will miss you all xo
GO RED SOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| yowza |
[May. 22nd, 2005|07:57 pm] |
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| | Senses Fail | ] |
so yes im offially sick. i got something and i dont know what. its kinda making me sad. i was suppose to hang out with dave this weekend but i have been feeling miserable and sleeping alot so i didnt get out. i thought i was hung over but i wasnt it was just me getting sick. ugghhh.... but yeah saturday night i went to jareds and we tried to watch american wedding but it kept skipping because it was sticky? weird i duno but yeah after that we went into the hottub which was sooooo fucking relaxing. what made this even better was that it was raining so i never got too hot nor too cold. it was amazing actually. i like hottubbing in the rain <3 well i hope i get better before the weekend coming up because im off to NY to see the bosox kick the nyy ass.... hehehe and to see brian! <3 |
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| neat |
[May. 21st, 2005|05:48 pm] |
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| | Eighteen Visions | ] |
wow i feel like death today. Well as you all know last night was prom. it was better then i expected. Me and Shaun danced like the 2 white people that we are. We all were rockstars at the fucking prom hahha what made it awesome is that we all had star sunglasses on and it was awesome... rolled up outta the limo with em on and it was amazing. pics will soon come.
on another note. my mom finally saw my tattoos. and well she is the sterotypical person i thought she would be. and frankly shes making me feel like crap for wanting to be myself. she called me a freak and she said im never going to go anywhere in life because omg i have tattoos. its not like i cant cover them up...i mean ive hid them for 6 months... i love how shes so old fashioned and said "its acceptiable on guys but not on girls" fucking gay! also as you all know they have a special dedication to my father and well she basically said he wouldnt like them and im stupid for getting them and wow that makes me feel so good. i hate my home. good thing im leaving in 4 months. |
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| wicked gay |
[May. 18th, 2005|03:48 pm] |
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| | Daughters! | ] |
okay im in a prediciment. |
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| im sucha girl |
[May. 18th, 2005|12:58 pm] |
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| | It Dies Today | ] |
i went to get my nails done yesterday for prom. and oh wow do i feel like such a chick. i guess its okay. they have little stars on them to match my dress which is rad.
thursday is hair i hope everyones ready its gonna be amazing!!!! or at least i hope so.
<333 |
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| wow |
[May. 16th, 2005|11:20 pm] |
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I got into college. i feel special. finally i have a purpose!
UNH no not university of New Hampshire. you actually think i would stay in this fucking state... omg no way.
<333
ps. i feel like poop because my mom is being a NIGGER. |
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| i love my dog |
[May. 15th, 2005|11:04 pm] |
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| | Every Time I Die | ] |
sometimes the best things in like come from the most unexpected places. i realized that i have one of the best dogs in the world. what made me realize this was my face nuzzling against hers while she rolled around and wagged her tail. shes mah baby <3 and i love her to death... ide be lost without her....xoxo
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| i have no life |
[May. 15th, 2005|04:35 pm] |
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| | It Dies Today | ] |
this is what i fucking did when i got bored. lame...
its me:
Bitches are just drowning in my wealth. haha... <333 |
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| holy hell of hotness |
[May. 15th, 2005|12:48 am] |
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| | It Dies Tpday | ] |
well my day was fucking a good one. something i havent had in awhile. dis morning i got to sleep in for a bit which was amazing. then i hung out with kev. and that was awesome because hes a cool cat. then i worked and well it wasnt that bad because it wasnt too busy.... but yah i saw this guy i use to date like a year ago and we just suddenly stopped talking and well i saw him today i think (?)at the mall and holy hell was he a whole lot better looking. im pissed i didnt get to say whats up because i was just endin mah break. but yeah kev also came to visit me at work again today and that was rad. i found out that some bitches were talkin madd shit about me yo' which isnt cool. n then after work i went to catch the last half of the show at New Direction and i got to see In Rememberance play. they are always amazing as is nick xoxo. i just had a good day i guess. brian got my letter which was sweet. i met maddd new faces today. omg i cant believe the huge body prints on mah car. hot. i need to shower now. this is it for now.
<333 |
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| hawt? |
[May. 13th, 2005|04:08 pm] |
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| | evert time i die | ] |
i wore this shirt the other night. i thought it was WICKED cute so i had to buy it. what do you guys think?
<333
also come visit me at work tonight!!! |
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| woah dude guy |
[May. 13th, 2005|01:00 pm] |
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| | EVERY TIME I DIE!!!!! | ] |
yeah im in marketing once again. weird. i just found out that i have a 96 average in this class which rocks!!!! since all i do is sit on myspace and eljay all fucking class. haha. oh man. funny how things work out. but yeah i feel really weird. stressed out. i cant keep holding all my thoughts inside but i have no one to tell... no one to trust... |
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| i feel like eating a cupcake |
[May. 12th, 2005|02:40 pm] |
hmmm someone told me i should write in this damn thing more often so im taking his advice and writing again. My day was boring as usual. same routine. get up tired. go to school tired. come home bored. i wish i worked more hours so i had no extra lazy time and no money. it really sucks. so yes i had bartending class last night and i learned the name of hopefully soon to be one of my favorite drinks
("slow comfortable screw up against the wall") fucking rad i think.
- 1 oz Galliano®
- 1 fill Orange Juice
- 1 oz Sloe Gin
- 1 oz Southern Comfort®
- 1 oz Vodka
im going to see if brian will get the booze and i can make it to try.
ahh.. so yes ive met a few new people these past months. future good friends i hope they all become because they all seem really interesting. i dont know what i want right now in that guy area because im feeling too much like an object. but i cant complain because i did enjoy parts of my spree and its my own fault for feeling that way because i let it happen. so as of now i think i need to just meet new people and hang out with them. im done chasing too i think. i always seem to feel like i put more effort into pursuing someone and it always ends up like them leading me on and leaving. it sucks.
so yes proms in a week tomorrow. im so stoked. i am going with this boy right here :
i hope everything turns out to be awesome. anybody know of any good parties afterwards? i really wanna have a good time if you know what i mean. im so stressed about getting everything done ie. my hair and my nails and makeup. i dont want to look bad because i know my date is going to look hawwwwtttt. he always does. i sometimes wish he wasnt a slut so i could corrupt him. but in need to stop falling for the slut boys because i always end up getting the shaft hahaha... yeah. well this thing seems kind of long and i dont know who would actually read this in there right mind but kudos to you. <333
some of you are amazing <3 i heart cookies
oh yeah i went to see SINCE THE FLOOD last night at new direction. it was rad. i heart them <3 |
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[May. 10th, 2005|05:41 pm] |
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well kids heres the rest of my entry now. things have been tough. getting over john has been hard. it seems like he dosent care so that makes things easier. umm im still without money and such so i cant get my baby on the road yet which is depressing. umm umm some more things i can bitch about... hmmm well ive decided that i want a real relationship again no more fucking around im sick of being treated as an object and not a person. hmmm so yeah this prom thing. im stressin cuz i need to get my hair done and nails done and accessories... omg im such a girl about this shit. haha it feels nice to get all dolled up sometimes. i am very exited to go with mah date. im just stoked about "bro"in down with him. hes a cool cat. yes you are ...
dont worry brian you are still number one in mah phizzonebook nigga <3
latah |
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| wowza |
[May. 10th, 2005|11:14 am] |
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i really do suck at writing in this damn thing. well ive been kinda doing my own thing for awhile. im trying to finish up school right now and just hoping i got into the NEW HAVEN!!! it already promises me an amazing time. so yeah proms coming up and ive finally found a date... woo i think hes amazing for offering to take me. im pretty stoked to get to know him a bit more. i just hope hes not going out of pity but because he wants to take me. ahh prom.... every girls nightmare... haha the funny thing is we hung out yesterday and he ended up giving me a bloody nose. a great start to a hopeful friendship i must say... i will elaborate more when i have time. im in marketing class right now.
peace out nucka fuckas
<333
april showas bring tha thunda! |
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| fucking people... |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|08:20 pm] |
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okay i havent been on this thing in awhile. I guess you could say ive been slacking? ive been fucking busy with all this College shit and finishing HS.... its stessing me out. Me and John are broken up because i need my space and time to figure out my life. I feel like ive been going through guys like water. i cant seem to put my finger on the right one. but as ive learned i cant rush things and whatever happens happens.
I applied to university of new haven and im pretty stoked. everyone there that ive met is really cool so hopefully ill get accepted. also another stresser is prom. i dont have an official date yet. maybe someone will ask me? i dont know... im hopeless...
<333
april
ps. i hate it when i cant help the people i care about. |
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| My heart beats in breakdowns |
[Feb. 21st, 2005|07:42 pm] |
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| | All American Rejects | ] |
friday was the last time i saw him <3 i know that im falling for him and it feels so good. i cant stop thinking about how he sang to me in the car and his smiles through out the night. im really glad i made all the decisions i did because if i hadnt he would be gone by now. Its scary to think about that but im really glad hes staying.
I HEART YOU <333 |
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| i heart you...yes i do |
[Feb. 15th, 2005|06:06 pm] |
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| | It Dies Today | ] |
Yesterday was fun. I got to work at a flower shop for the day and it was amazing. i love flowers they are so beautiful. expecially roses...after that i went out to dinner with john <3 hes so amazing. Through out the night i gave him little hints as to what i got him for vday.... i think he knew all along but he was just not letting me know. He got me a 12 pk of Dr. Pepper which is AMAZING!!! haha im so glad he has the sense of humor that he does because its the same as mine.... he also got me a chocolate easter bunny.... that was pretty funny...but to top it off he gave me a card that said "happy valentines day daughter" that was so funny.... ahh i <3 this boy. But im a little less stressed since i got this suprise over with. Thanks to Jimmy everything went smoothly. I cant wait until john teaches me how to drive stick better then i can right now. Im jealous that he gets to drive her everyday but im really glad its going to someone i really care about. The more i look at him the more i fall for him everyday<333.... i hope he dosent go.... |
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| hopeless? |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|05:35 pm] |
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| | thrice | ] |
I dont know why i feel this way but i do. I feel like everything i do is or ends up hopeless. I am trying to help somebody i really care about and i feel like i am going no where. i dont know why but recently ive just been blah... i feel like my life means nothing. I know this isnt true.... i guess im just depressed because im afriad to loose someone i really care about once again.... that seems to be the pattern my life is going. Is it right for me to try and change that?? I just hate this.... this empty feeling. |
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